This is my moment feel

Your parasite mind ain't the truly respectable kind..........




It's when the good is going that every body come rushing back to you. The old kind, the good kind, the just kind and the kind-ofs. The good can't come and go, the bad can't come and go; it just rush's me. Rushes to get my mind to wander. Reading has been a therapy for me this past year. I thought I needed to go back, until I picked up these books. Eat, Pray, Love, The Power of Now, The Secret. These are becoming surfaced books, picked up by the media fast paced public, but honestly they are written by geniuses. People who study minds need to come out more surfaced. I've learned that because I do something a certain way, someone may do that a different way. That is an easy thought to think; but our anxious, always GOING minds became complicated on accepting that your way isn't the right or wrong way, it is just a way. And there are many, unidentifiable ways out there. So be open to these ways.


This is all so frightening but I see a finish line, and I am in a race to get there... but this ride is so exciting. . . . Red Closet Couture




Red Closet lives by the sun, and loves by the moon
dream with the stars.


Goodnight 4am....

"Mom, It's just witchcraft"

Misconceptions. We're full of them. Maybe it should be me. Why do you run from me? You might deny it but we're all tied to our desires. But why do I desire freedom and wind in my hair. I have these images in my head, these quotes, these theories that I can't get rid of. It all ties back to desire and habit. 






Desire and Habit....


I'm kicking habit, and chasing desire. "Gone chasing Unicorns"




I can't leave my room, I'm setting up shoots, swatching colors, and letting creativity pour out of my fingers.




lonely hearts=easy hearts

A heart like yours

I'm going to say what I've been feeling.


The ones we leave behind when we go out to sea to find a better way. I've rollercoaster'd this year. From a cheap love, cut short by my emotionless taught way. I wasn't ready to invest my heart fully in something and actually feel it being returned. I was always about rescuing and ditching. I don't know a lot about the ways love. The movies teach you falseness and unrealistic unreachable heights. I have learned that the hard way. So a love snowman just melted before my eyes and I felt like the harsh hot lonely Sun. So I went out searching for someone who related. I met him like the shooting stars we watched at the beach the first night together. Even now, just friends. He holds my heart in his hand. And I can't or won't hide it anymore. The age where you decide a lot of things. Are you to young? Are you old enough? Where in this big world do you belong? West? East? Space? I need to figure these things out. But it never hurts to have someone there with a symmetric heart to help you see through them. This romantic fantasy has fallen back burner for me. I have my sights set on a different kind of life. I know I have been gone a little, friends and I'm sorry for that. But once this is successful and I can kick it back; you will all get it all made it up. I just know what I'm doing right now, I've never felt so full of life behind these machines, in front of business people sharing something I have dreamed about doing since I was 5. This year has been a train wreck when it comes to school as well. I could've taken the easy way out, been a teacher. Tried to do design or photography on the side. But I can't its fire burning inside my, and my soul needs to be ignited. So here I am, a little girl trying to take over a big city. Thank you to my support. And I can't wait to share this summer of sewing, sweating, bickering and endless cups of coffee with all of you. The only one who knows the secrets right now it my 4 walls is my room, and thank god they don't talk. 




I Miss You Justin.

Golden gated heart

She simply rode that wonderful,


that WILD and WINDY


crest of first love... <3

Running with knives cross country

This summer was all about the travel:it's difficult to bring a laptop everywhere to write but my diaries are filled with proof and memory of feelings at that time from my summer spent abroad.
Maryland (beaches)
Buffalo (endless skies+ (family)
Canada (Niagara Falls)
Florida (Meetings)
Waterfalls (self discovery) + 10 girlfriends
 LA, CA in 2 weeks with my Trina (and Dan and Justin) for schooling and shopping

..they were all so wonderful and made me have an epiphanies

travel does the mind so big, but the self so small
~a lot at first but then it makes sense..
Nice start to a year devoted to this company taking off. But the best part about Red Closet is travel is a part of becoming successful. I want to go to Mid-west. Grand Canyon again, deserts, open skies, dry rock formations.

more to come, new blog for Red Closet Couture soon


I love my support