Sunday, November 8, 2009
Much needed happening.
Update:
Today will be the first day I start getting serious. Coming up with ideas and putting my creativity into one thing. Soon a myspace will be up with a hook up to a website with all our designs on it. At this time I am thankful for everyone helping me, backing me up and believing in me. And us. And believing in eachother. It needs to happen, and I believe we both can make it happen. After Christmas I look to be traveling, selling, making things happen. SO right now this is the take over.
Get ready.
Design design no sleep. no sleep.
Today will be the first day I start getting serious. Coming up with ideas and putting my creativity into one thing. Soon a myspace will be up with a hook up to a website with all our designs on it. At this time I am thankful for everyone helping me, backing me up and believing in me. And us. And believing in eachother. It needs to happen, and I believe we both can make it happen. After Christmas I look to be traveling, selling, making things happen. SO right now this is the take over.
Get ready.
Design design no sleep. no sleep.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I'm wide awake, it's morning
Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is There Still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.
Head ache
Design:
-Alice lost in wonderland
bippty bobbity boo
-Something old
Nothing new
Me Vs Love
a
non
y
mous
All Q's
No A's
games play us
get cape
wear cape
FLY.
party~
Friday everyday
F.
you and
your chemistry
Penny
Lane
thrive
on
human connection
Machine hearts
need batteries <3
we're all are not
on
the same
page
get
a way with
words
We
cross the country
on frequency
road dreams
always
searching
for
more
show
must
go on
my
shadow
is
hot
-Alice lost in wonderland
bippty bobbity boo
-Something old
Nothing new
Me Vs Love
a
non
y
mous
All Q's
No A's
games play us
get cape
wear cape
FLY.
party~
Friday everyday
F.
you and
your chemistry
Penny
Lane
thrive
on
human connection
Machine hearts
need batteries <3
we're all are not
on
the same
page
get
a way with
words
We
cross the country
on frequency
road dreams
always
searching
for
more
show
must
go on
my
shadow
is
hot
Anonymous.
Over night factory worker
I have been attending Naranon meetings in support of my brother. I truly believe we are so naive to admit we don't know how to deal with it. And because of it, my house is just so uptight and we all are on edge. This all is coming from, simply, fear. Fear of death, addiction, hurting, and of it never going away. These meetings are opening my eyes to this side that some people have.
I have trouble accepting it. I hear these stories of spouses doing crack, or alcoholics, and it is so hard for me to accept that I am a victim, it is happening to me. Still after 2,3 meetings I have trouble knowing that, this is all real. It's hard for me to see the outside of the situation as an insider. I've never been an insider in a situation like this. Growing up I was always told, your family is so great. Bounded by real love, real want for children. My brothers are my best friends and it's not likely that everyone has that. Not only are they my first people I run to talk to. But I enjoy their company and we keep each other updated in each others lives, but we are such big parts in each others lives. Especially now all living home. Leon has been so strong through this. His twin brother, best friend has sort of, broken him. Leon and Greg are always shadowing each other. Except for gregs very impulsive behavior. Leon thinks. Greg never thinks. It is hard for a brother who is very attached to another brother, for them to be separated especially by a drug, a thing that alters changes, ones mood. Family is so so important to me so I will continue to learn to be a better support system for the most important person to me, right now. I am just wishful thinking. I know it doesn't happen over night, but I have high hopes in him. And can't wait for him to come home. Because without him home, something's missing.
And being in these groups, you always realize there are people living with this everyday, years and years among years they live with this problem, as the person doing it, or family members. Just learning, teaching, trying, helping.
I have been attending Naranon meetings in support of my brother. I truly believe we are so naive to admit we don't know how to deal with it. And because of it, my house is just so uptight and we all are on edge. This all is coming from, simply, fear. Fear of death, addiction, hurting, and of it never going away. These meetings are opening my eyes to this side that some people have.
I have trouble accepting it. I hear these stories of spouses doing crack, or alcoholics, and it is so hard for me to accept that I am a victim, it is happening to me. Still after 2,3 meetings I have trouble knowing that, this is all real. It's hard for me to see the outside of the situation as an insider. I've never been an insider in a situation like this. Growing up I was always told, your family is so great. Bounded by real love, real want for children. My brothers are my best friends and it's not likely that everyone has that. Not only are they my first people I run to talk to. But I enjoy their company and we keep each other updated in each others lives, but we are such big parts in each others lives. Especially now all living home. Leon has been so strong through this. His twin brother, best friend has sort of, broken him. Leon and Greg are always shadowing each other. Except for gregs very impulsive behavior. Leon thinks. Greg never thinks. It is hard for a brother who is very attached to another brother, for them to be separated especially by a drug, a thing that alters changes, ones mood. Family is so so important to me so I will continue to learn to be a better support system for the most important person to me, right now. I am just wishful thinking. I know it doesn't happen over night, but I have high hopes in him. And can't wait for him to come home. Because without him home, something's missing.
And being in these groups, you always realize there are people living with this everyday, years and years among years they live with this problem, as the person doing it, or family members. Just learning, teaching, trying, helping.
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